cypher..

who are you?
are you me?
my reflection from tomorrow..
here to take toll of yesterday..

suspended in time..
space that doesn't exist..
thoughts without words..
meaning without resolve..

and so you click on..

now...

thoughts that cannot be brought to light,
cannot be named,
hide in the night

whispers that shake and thrill to touch,
mere fleeting thoughts,
a distant sight

a ghost that's destined to walk the earth,
empty, haunting,
without plight

forever a second, a lifetime away,
no form to take,
nothing seems right

everything is wrong,
now seems so long,
wake up
wake up

do you see me now?

wired..

why can't i let go of you?
your mindless games and endless words..
i stay here, glued to my seat, searching for a sign..

a way to cut you off from me..
a tumor growing deep inside..
slowing me down everyday..

a sickness to connect..
a weakness not to feel..
a distraction from the truth..

banal prospects devoid of light..
mundane words losing sight..
i need to disconnect..

still..

seconds slip by as the darkness falls..
silence stinks up the air around..
sanity desperately holding on in vain,
as it braces itself for the encroaching beast..

hidden in whispers, it waits for you to take flight..
yet you stand still, eyes barely open,
watching the pale moonlight,
cast shadows that dance beneath your feet..
beckoning you to move..
just once more..

but time has turned you into stone..
unable to live, you only stand witness to the living..
sinking deeper into the soil,
the elements slowly wear you down,
eroding the surface and chipping away at your cracks..

hoping to reveal,
the glowing ember of a still beating heart..
which may one day find purpose to move again..

used tissue..

you have been discarded..
ripped apart and thrown away..
wasted words..
foolish trust..
cold hands led me to the dark..
impulse hurts me deep inside..

i have let myself down..
i have fallen and failed..
i am weak with no resolve..
lost in my own thoughts..
i want to run away from it all..

used goods..
that's all i am..

river grande..

i fell down the river grande,
into it's deep murky waters..
spinning out of control,
barely keeping my head above the water..
the under currents were too strong
as it dragged me to the bottom..

beneath lay a strange but familiar creature..
a usual sight in my dreams..
drowning in words, heart raptures in delight,
we played beneath the murky water,
eyes closed,
finding each other with touch..

as i emerged to take breath,
i realised how lost i was..
i was swept miles away from home..
a sigh of relief, i was not scared..
i have longed to run away for so long..
to let the currents sweep me by..
to not be in control..

the creature disappears from my sight..
leaving me with nothing more than a dream..
i am tempted to go after it,
risk drowning and losing my way..
the murky water of the river grande are not without risks..
if only i could breath underwater or take flight..
i would sore into that creature's arms again..

for now, i just drift..
and let the currents take me down..